MY CHIC INTUITION
My Chic Intuition
This is not a podcast. It’s a frequency.
A cinematic decoding of the feminine experience through poetic storytelling, symbolic monologues, and soul-level transmissions.
Hosted by Carmen Ramos, My Chic Intuition is episodes archive disguised as content, but built as a cipher. Each title, a clue. Each episode, a mirror.
We talk presence, performance, power, and the process of unbecoming what the world projected onto us.
It’s for the women who move differently. The ones who’ve been labeled too much, too quiet, too soft, too sharp and chose to be all of it, anyway.
Listen closely.
You’re not just tuning in.
You’re decoding yourself.
MY CHIC INTUITION
Reclaiming
You're listening to my Chic Intuition, a podcast for women who move like poetry, speak like ritual and choose presence over performance. I'm Carmen, and this is not just conversation, it's remembrance, it's return, it's a soft unveiling of everything you buried to survive. Here we don't rush, we don't beg to be seen and we speak to wake something up in you. Now breathe and come home to yourself. If you're listening to this in your room or your car or your shower, I want you to ask yourself something who did I become to be accepted and what did it cost me? And now ask yourself, what would it feel like to come home to me again? In the next part of this episode, we shift. I'll show you how to start reclaiming the woman you left behind and how to begin again as art. Stay with me, okay. Now let me tell you the real story, because I used to be the queen of looking put together and feeling like an emotional drive through on the inside, like, yeah, I had the slick back bun, the skin was glowing lashes on, but the way my soul was disconnected. Girl, I was running on caffeine, contouring confusion. There is this one time I'll never forget it. I had just finished filming a. Get ready with me for a brand. The lighting was cute, the vibes were vibing and as soon as I hit stop recording, I sat on my bed and I just started. Not cried, I didn't journal, I just started like I couldn't even remember why I started filming in the first place. It was in that silence that I realized damn, I'm putting all this effort into being seen and I don't even see myself. That one hurt. But it cracked something open. That was the beginning of the shift. I stopped filming, get readies with me to impress people and started getting ready like I was meeting God or at the very least, meeting the version of me. I kept avoiding Okay, can we talk about how many times I've gotten ready for a man who didn't even know how to spell my name right in his phone? Like, be honest, have you ever done your makeup for someone who gave maybe energy? Because I have, and not just once. All right, so I remember this one time.
Speaker 1:This man I used to see let's call him whatever the fuck. I already knew what it was. He hit me up late. I know very cliche. He was vague about plans, fucking awful, and I he would just make me question myself, but I still got cute, I still put on the lashes and I still sprayed the good perfume For what? So he could maybe act right for three hours and disappear again. And the thing is it's not about him, it's about me thinking I had to prove I was worth choosing. I remember standing in the mirror like if I just do this right, if I look the version of me, he imagines maybe he'll finally act right. But, girl, he wasn't confused, he just wasn't capable and I say this now with love and healed skin.
Speaker 1:But I really used to get dressed for disappointment. It's not even the man, it's a version of me who thought love had to be earned, who thought effort meant value, who thought proximity to him would fix the ache in me. Now I don't get ready for no man. I get ready to remind myself I'm already the one. Whether he texts back or not, whether he watches my story or not, whether I get walked out on again or not, I don't dress to be chosen anymore. I dress because I already chose me. And don't get me wrong. I still want to look good when I walk into the room. I still want the slow blink, the double take, the who is she? But it's not for a man. It's for the moment, the moment I walk in and remember damn, I almost forgot I was that girl like let's actually sit with that for a second.
Speaker 1:How many times have we convinced ourselves that looking good was gonna fix the way we felt, that if our hair was laid and our outfit was giving, somehow we'd forget that we were dealing with a man who only sees us when it's convenient? I'm sorry, but at some point it's like why am I putting more effort into showing up than he is? And I don't just mean effort like lashes and liner, I mean energy. Why am I overthinking the caption while he's not even thinking about me? Why am I choosing perfume while he's choosing silence? And we start telling ourselves no, it's just self-care, it's for me. But deep down we know it's not. It's for a reaction, it's to feel in control, it's to cover the fact that we're low-key, spiraling and don't want to face it. I've done it and I'm not judging you if you've done it too. I'm just saying let's not lie to ourselves about it anymore, because pretending you're just doing you when you're really trying to distract yourself from being disappointed again, that's not healing, that's survival loop.
Speaker 1:And this isn't even about men at this point. This is about how many times we abandon ourselves and call it empowerment, like, nah, I'm not empowered when I'm performing calm while my heart is breaking, I'm just emotionally exhausted. So when I say get ready with me is now a ritual, I mean that shit. I'm not painting over pain anymore. I'm preparing to meet the version of me that doesn't chase, doesn't explain, doesn't settle. I'm not doing it for the story, I'm doing it for the version of me that almost forgot she was sacred. So if you're listening right now and you're getting ready, ask yourself is this for real or is this for approval? And whatever the answer is, just be honest about it, because awareness is power. You don't have to shame yourself, you just have to see yourself.
Speaker 1:The energy we pour into getting ready should feel like love, not like proof, not like pick me, not like please choose me. Just, I already here, I already chose me and if you feel it cool, okay, let me say something real, real quick, and I want you to actually hear me. Half the time we're getting ready, not just you, all of us. We're not doing it because we feel good, we're doing it to feel better. And there's a difference Like, yeah, we say it's self-care, but deep down we're anxious, we're overthinking, we're spiraling about somebody trying to control how we feel by controlling how we look.
Speaker 1:And what that actually is on a psychological level is your nervous system trying to get back to safety. Your brain's like I feel like shit, but maybe if I look good, I'll feel okay. That's not confidence, that's coping. It's literally your body trying to regulate itself through routine. And if you're disconnected while doing it, if you're brushing your hair or blending your makeup but you're not even there, that's dissociation. That's your brain checking out because it's overwhelmed. You're not grounded, you're just going through the motion. And, girl, I've done it too. So I'm not judging, I'm just saying let's call it what it is.
Speaker 1:It's not always empowerment, sometimes it's emotional survival. But here's the shift when you slow it down, when you do it for you, not for the reaction, it actually becomes healing. You start regulating your nervous system on purpose. That's when it turns from a routine into a ritual Like instead of being like let me throw this on real quick so he watches my story you're like let me get ready, like I'm choosing me today, like I'm meeting my future self. That's the shift, that's the regulation, that's the reprogramming. So you're not just putting on mascara, you're telling your nervous system we're safe now. We're not chasing today, we're not performing today. We're rooted, and when you move from that place you start to feel peace. You don't need the attention, you're not begging to be chosen, because you already chose yourself in the mirror.
Speaker 1:So, yeah, if you're getting ready today, take your time. Don't rush the mirror, don't rush your energy. You don't owe beauty to anyone. You don't owe performance to anyone. If you get ready, let it be for the version of you who almost forgot she was divine, because you're not here to be consumed. You're here to be connected, and the first connection it's with yourself.
Speaker 1:Your ritual doesn't have to be dramatic. It can be quiet. It can be lighting a candle, sipping your coffee, standing in the mirror and saying I'm not chasing today, I'm already enough. That's how you regulate, that's how you come home. So if this hits you today, good, let it. Don't just nod. Do something different tomorrow. Move slower, speak softer, get ready like you're meeting the version of you who saves your life. We're not abandoning ourselves anymore, not in the mirror, not in our rituals, not for anybody, ever again. So yeah, this isn't just about makeup or outfits, or get readies with me. This is about intention, and the next time you stand in front of that mirror, I want you to remember. You're not getting ready to be seen, you're getting ready to be remembered, because this is my chief intuition A coded map to who I am. Follow my journey and hopefully you find a piece of yourself too. Thank you, so Thank you. Thank you, bye.