MY CHIC INTUITION
My Chic Intuition
This is not a podcast. It’s a frequency.
A cinematic decoding of the feminine experience through poetic storytelling, symbolic monologues, and soul-level transmissions.
Hosted by Carmen Ramos, My Chic Intuition is episodes archive disguised as content, but built as a cipher. Each title, a clue. Each episode, a mirror.
We talk presence, performance, power, and the process of unbecoming what the world projected onto us.
It’s for the women who move differently. The ones who’ve been labeled too much, too quiet, too soft, too sharp and chose to be all of it, anyway.
Listen closely.
You’re not just tuning in.
You’re decoding yourself.
MY CHIC INTUITION
Embrace
Carmen explores the powerful journey of embracing authenticity over performance and confronts the psychological concept of self-abandonment. She shares personal stories about moments when she realized she was performing a palatable version of herself rather than showing up authentically.
• Reflecting on moments of performance versus authenticity in social situations
• Examining a date where Carmen realized she was presenting a digestible version of herself
• Understanding self-abandonment as disconnecting from your truth to maintain connections with others
• Recognizing how women, especially women of color, are taught that being agreeable is survival
• Exploring the emotional costs of self-abandonment: resentment, burnout, and identity confusion
• Learning to stay present with yourself by asking if what you're saying is true or just safe
• Journal prompt: When was the last time you betrayed yourself to be chosen, approved, or understood?
• Reminder that your wholeness is not too much and your depth isn't a problem to solve
Hi everyone, welcome back to my Chic Intuition. I'm Carmen, and today we're diving into the art of embracing every part of ourselves, not just the polished parts we pose, but the messy, the healing, the becoming, because the truth is. Your softness, your scars, your silence, they all tell a story worth hearing. And when you finally stop editing yourself to be palatable, you begin to taste your own power. This episode is your permission slip to embrace the parts of you the world told you to dim. The real shift isn't becoming someone new, it's remembering who you were before the world got loud. I remember this one time. It was a moment, it was stupid, it was small, but it stuck. I was standing in a room full of people that were all talking, all performing, and I realized I wasn't really there. I was curating myself, smiling at the right moment, nodding like I cared, but inside I was somewhere else, watching, waiting for someone to notice I wasn't actually being me. It wasn't even about the people I've been around louder energy before and it wasn't about how quiet I felt around them, or like my real self didn't belong in that room. And the worst part for for me, no one noticed a difference because I've gotten so good at performing. That's the part that haunted me, honestly, because I did myself so much that it was so believable that I could disappear in just plain sight. And there were me, it would make no difference whatsoever. And people who still call me confident, and inside of me I was like no, I don't like to be composed. Or I was just starving for depth and for truth and someone to see me without having to over explain, like they can just look at me and say you know, I know this isn't you. I used to think being mysterious meant being unreadable, but really I was just hiding, not from them but for my, from myself, from the parts of me that felt too tender, too opinionated, too brown, too loud, too much. The irony is those are the parts that made me magnetic and, honestly, it's been years trying to be the right amount of everything approachable but not too familiar, ambitious but not too threatening, beautiful but not trying too hard, and all it was a blur to me Until one day I caught my own reflection and didn't recognize who I'd been performing.
Speaker 1:I remember being on this date. It wasn't a bad one, it was just very performative. He was talking and I was doing that thing I do smiling, asking the right follow-up, playing it cool, and somewhere between his third fun fact and whatever basic rooftop bar cocktail he ordered. I just zoned out, I wasn't doing it in a rude way, I just fully floated above it Like, is this who I'm being chosen as, this digestible version of me, the one who doesn't interrupt, doesn't challenge, doesn't take up too much space. And the wild part is is he thought the date went amazing, told me I was so easy to talk to. But I walked home angry, not at him, at me, for serving the version of myself. I swore I'd never be again the one who knows how to be liked in a room but not loved in truth. And that was my aha moment because I was like what am I doing with myself? Why am I being digestible? And I was honestly bored out of my mind, I think, at his first one fact. I was like, okay, let me wrap this shit up. But I couldn't even wrap it up. I was like, oh my God, I'm still here. Why am I not? I'm being absent to myself? I was literally like, oh my God, like what am I doing? But you know we jump into these situations and then we figure out is this really what we want out of a relationship? Do we want a person to be like oh my God, I love that part of you where you know you didn't really say much and that's not what I'm looking for. So what was that moment really?
Speaker 1:Psychology it's called self-abandonment. It's when you disconnect from your own needs, emotions or truth to maintain connection with others. You trade authenticity for acceptance. And the wild part it's usually unconscious, especially for women, especially for women, especially for women of color. We've been taught that being agreeable, pleasant, accommodating is survival. But over time it comes with a cause resentment, emotional burnout, even identity confusion. You start feeling numb in rooms you used to love. You overthink every interaction. You wonder did they like me or just a version I knew would make them comfortable?
Speaker 1:Doing better doesn't mean becoming confrontational or cold. It means learning to stay with yourself, even in real time. It's asking is what I'm saying true or just safe? It's letting silence sit instead of rushing to fill it. It's allowing discomfort instead of shrinking for peace. That isn't real. How many times have you shape shifted in a conversation just to be more digestible? How often do you water yourself down and call it peace? How much of what they love about you isn't actually you. That's not judgment, that's an invitation. If this stirred something in you, grab a journal or just sit with this question quietly when was the last time I betrayed myself just to be chosen, approved or understood? And what would it look like to stay with myself next time instead? You don't need to fix it all today. Just name it, witness it, and that's how it starts. If no one's told you lately, your wholeness is not too much, your depth isn't a problem to solve, and the people who really see you won't need the watered down version.
Speaker 1:This episode of my Chic Intuition wasn't just a story, it was a mirror, and if you saw yourself in it even a little, you're not alone. You're just waking up. This was for my frequencies, the ones decoding the signal, not just consuming the sound. I'll see you in the next transmission. © BF-WATCH TV 2021. We'll be right back. I was all ashamed of myself. I've been a sinner, and this is another story. Tell me, oh man, please tell me, what's okay, what's okay, what's okay, thank you. © BF-WATCH TV 2021. Thank you.